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　　Ocassionally it occurs to me that I am not in the mood of focusing on my work. I am aware of the fact that consulting is the best way to earn a living to make both ends meet. My partner can afford my daily expense, but it is undoubtedly that I should save some pocket money in case of unexpected cash needs. Unfortunately even the reward doesn't add to my happiness nor trigger any motivation.

　　Perhaps I need some time to unwind from work. Physically exhaustion compounds with the stress of work. I should reduce my stress levels in order not to be overwhelmed.

　　I am not feeling social all the time. I wonder whether I am a burder to you. I don't feel like to sharing my status with others, even when someone asks, I just try to give and abbreviated version. Sometimes I cannot make the words come out right. I fail to muster up a smile.

　　Some group numbers tend to maker decisions about medications without talking to a therapist. I believe that's why they are still seriously depressed.

　　Medication is helping to keep the edge off. I believe it. Therefore I turn to medication when it is necessary.

　　Will there be any postive changes in my life? I am looking forward to it as well as doubting the possibility. I don't have a strong support network.

　　I played the Game Depression Quest, even the best ending is not so pleasant with the character knowing that the battle is never going to be over.